Joyful Instant that never lasts

Don't talk about love to me

2009-11-18T22:55:00.000-08:00

I'm jinxed.
I should just stay alone.
Its always me that is making all the effort to make things right

This time, I think i really liked him.
We met at the dancefloor, which was not a right place at all.
We went out the second day.
We went out on the third day.
We stopped talking on the fourth day.
Ironic isn't it?

I wanted to cry, but i stopped myself
I wanted to cut myself to share some of the pain off my heart.

Tired of these

2009-10-04T09:27:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of keeping things the way it is
I'm tired of trying to find that someone
I'm tired and scared of relationships now

I'm afraid, of comitting in relationships
Cause it will always end up in me being hurt
I'm tired of all those things

I left him, I knew i deserve better

2009-10-04T08:31:00.001-07:00

Updates for those who doesnt know what's actually happening.

Yes, it's over and done
It was not a serious relationship to start with
He did not treasure me
I liked him

Its just somethimes i wonder
why is all these happening to me
Am i destined to not be able to find my Mr Right
Well.

Whats the big deal with being single for 4 years
with feelings that is constantly being played with.
Which now i know that the years or time will keep multiplying

I will always give my 100% to my other half
without expecting that they will do the same
I'm now beginning to doubt myself,
that should i change myself
to play around
and not being serious in everything i do
AS it will never work out for me.

You guys out there may say that i'm a flirt by saying that
But will being serious prevent me from being hurt.
I'd rather not.

Status Difference

2009-09-29T09:01:00.000-07:00

The time has come for me after 4 years
Regaining the ability to get sensitive over small things
Not forgetting to measure how i can mood change

Well there are some of my friends who approves and disapproves this relationship
But i'll never give this chance up
I'm going to try my best to keep this relationship
This is the very first time in 4 years that im having a serious relationship
Well i've met his parents too =)

But i also understand that right now i also wish to have my dearest friends around me
I want them to be there for me if anything happens
I've matured in not being immature in relationships
I will treasure this
But there are still restrictions to my feeling as i have to be sure
Sure that this is going to work out for real before i start to plunge myself in

I understand why some of my friends disapproves, they are afriad that i'll get hurt
I'm afraid too. But i have to experience pain myself in order to mature
I have to say that i'm already in the post stage of experiencing being DUMPED & CHEATED
So i'm using this chance to get out of that completely.

I love my friends. And him

Drifting apart

2009-09-29T08:54:00.000-07:00

These days i just felt that i had drifted away from all my friends,
everytime i go online, i see all those people that were once so close
But are all behaving like strangers now
Maybe its that we are all busy with our own stuff.

Friends that i;ve known since my first class in RP, -W35N
No longer in contact
Plus with one guy that i do not wish to even mention, much further seeing him
Friends to strangers in an instant

Not mentioning that my relationship status is now different,
I'm begining to get sensitive over matters
that i do not think that its a good sign
Now i believe why most of my attached friends prefer single life

Im back to clean up the rusts here

2009-09-21T08:48:00.000-07:00

Peeps, i'm back

Updates : (1) She finally deleted him out of her life

(2) She's working at Bugis Junction (2nd level, Grandchild)

(3) Point DELETED, sorry if u didnt see it =) DONT ASK

2009-08-03T23:36:00.000-07:00

My newest addition
♥

♥Cam-ing!

2009-07-21T09:31:00.000-07:00

♥Cam-whore =)

LOLS, been feeling crazy these dew days.

Things will never be the same again

2009-07-18T21:59:00.000-07:00

Random Pic :D

*Putting it back in place

Chanced upon something that i should not

Not that i have regretted it

But it just brought back uneventful memories

All smiles today

2009-07-13T23:50:00.000-07:00

Gosh i think the old crazy me is back.
SSHH, omly some ppl knows what i'll do,
Dear u shhh also ok? =D

Its gone and it will never return
its for a good cause
it will not be an obstacle for me anymore
Thanks for that.

Going crazy in an instance,
too HYPED up now.

Ps : Well he's cute! :D

Philanderer

2009-07-09T21:43:00.000-07:00

In school now, totally brain dead.
Things has been happening around me and i'll need some time to accept it.

I hate it when i still have to face him.
The feelings are gone, and why do i still feel the weird feeling in me?
Well, ok whatever.

25 more days to go. Hwaiting!
Dear is still at home waiting for me =)
I have to get my mind of these crap.

Sorry Dear

2009-07-06T18:53:00.000-07:00

Its my intention from the start
Even i didnt wana hurt myself
I just can't stop myself
And the damage is done

Although i promised u that i will not do it
I still did it in the end
But don't worry
I'm still alright .

Self inflict is painful.

Unforgettable instance

2009-06-30T02:40:00.000-07:00

I've made a mistake

But i cant seem to think on the right track anymore
One mistake leads to another
I became like this because...he doesnt care anymore
Please someone tell me that what i am doing is going to ruin me.
I just cant stop myself from falling in deeper into this mistake

You killed me twice

Staying still

2009-06-29T09:33:00.000-07:00

Its way past mid-night
But im still awake..

Flashback of memories :
It suddenly dawn to me that,
u'll be gone forever just like that
Although i tried to conceal this portion of my life away
Its comes back as and when it wants to

Im still in the midst of trying to get over.
I guess, i am over it
In a delusion..
Why do i always have to think about this,
when i am still trying to forget it momentarily
under the influence of alcohol

I guess it just doesn't go away like that....

Butter Butter Butter

2009-06-17T08:47:00.001-07:00

The dumb me =)
A night at butter factory with dear!
Well, nice experience i must say
Hate the subsequent part - school the next day

Hmm, is it me being sensitive or did i caught him doing something.

It does not matter anymore.

Brand New :]

2009-06-09T23:34:00.000-07:00

She has changed.

But she doesnt want people to judge her.

This is who she is.

Overwhelmed Emotions

2009-06-08T22:28:00.000-07:00

Cant stop myself from thinking.

Although i know that its no use doing all these things.

Im trying very hard to distract myself.

Doing things that i dont even do/like

Maybe if i were a boy, i think i could understand.

But i think that i'm too childish.

I brought this upon myself,

i flared up at him for no reason,

i really regretted for doing so.

BOY PLEASE LISTEN TO ME :

I loved u and i always will.

However u treat me.

I also want things to slowly fade away.

But i can't stand the way he ended things.

Changed Situation

2009-06-07T10:31:00.000-07:00

He sent me a sms saying that he thinks that we are not compatible,
he wants me to move on.
Thinks that i will find a better guy.

Now Dion is hurt, but she does not want to show it.
She will now be brave and get through this,herself.
And most importantly, she enjoyed the times she had with him.
Even though its not going to work out anymore.

I can't cry all by myself.Its no use
But i still do.

The hidden message

2009-05-29T09:19:00.000-07:00

My feeling its all within this picture.

I just hope that the situation will change(For the better)

Boy....Its all true

Shattered Pieces

2009-05-28T07:51:00.000-07:00

From the day i met HIM,
he gave me a new meaning to life,
he woke my heart that was asleep for 3 years.

But now, its just a facade once more,
just leave me hanging here,
till i've found another angel that could wake me up again.

The first story

2009-05-27T05:45:00.000-07:00

This is the girl who wants to escape reality.

Who wants to meet her prince charming =)